hello..

i am deeply disturbed..
i am super worried about HER.
she's sick..ill..
but still wants to go to school..
hope she'd be fine soon..
hope she's eating her meds..
hope she's getting a lot of rests..

HOME..
i'm not sure what to say really..
its ok..i guess?
hmmm..
got to endure..

QUESTIONS...
running through my mind..
every single word or sentence said is really scaring me..
i dunno why.
hmmm...

GUILTY...
i feel really guilty when that 'word' comes out or comes into conversation..
although it was me who wants to know about it..
i feel as if i'm at fault ..

should i be here,there?

im lost im still findin'
im drowning now im sinkin'
i can't take this god damn feelin'
its really grillin'....
In me..
the beef just too big for me..
try to hush hush things away.
but it'll just sway its way around..
around town.around the city.
then it just comes back and bite me.
im trippin'
trying to rhyme this life back in..

feelings all jumbled up currently..

trying to find a way to get peace in this blind mind..

SCHOOL got me feeling disturbed for a few weeks..

getting better now..so far,school is the only place i can really relax..

minus the nagging teachers and long hours of studies..

school is just one of 2 places i'd go to relax..

esplanade is another one..i'd usually walk there from where i live..

although there's quite a large number of people there,at least there's no one to just bring me down in any way..

HOME....

let's just say..it is really pissing me off..

everytime i'm at home,i'd feel very uneasy..when i'm at home,i feel very confused..its like my brain is being grabbed,torn apart then squeezed back together..

just a bite of my life for now..will continue soon..

hello..first post of this confidential blog of mine..

a bit of an intro about this blog..

this is where i talk properly and more serious than my other blog which you would know..

Here is where I'd let things out.

Just a brief intro about this blog..

so stick around..

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