hello...

just wanna update a bit cos trying to do something to get something outta my mind..

ok let's begin.

tonight..tomorrow..ah fuck..i dunno.lets just say 2.30 am later..im gonna watch the spaniards vs the dutch..world cup final..spain is gonna win says paul the octopus from germany..

But..mani the parakeet from homeland singapore 'says' holland was gonna win..

so we'll see which 'titan' is right..if paul prediction was wrong,im pretty sure he'll be dinner..

ok..now talk about school...

definitely a pain in the butt.

had to learn to book flights..the special request thingy..

had to learn PIE..etiquette kinda thing and hw u look.stuff like that..

and learn to type an email or something..-.-

and cough is still acting up on me.vomitting still..biler mau abes

i miss baby a lot !

baby i miss you a lot !

siti namira..i miss you.

love u many many babe..

hello..
its been a long time since i updated my blog.

was in the 'i don't bother to' mood..

so now since i have nothing to do,i'm gonna update this blog.
Let us begin...

Ok.past few days not really feeling good.
bouncy bouncy..

ok F*** it..
i don't know what to update about really.


just wanna say i miss SITI NAMIRA BTE FADIL ..

k bye

A very good day to one and all.

a different day a different update.

ouhkay.let us begin.

Yesterday FISH got her phone back.So glad.haha.

Took you long enough babe !!

i missed you.

NEXT !

I am loving this blog skin of mine.

Like it? Nice eh?

Loving the background.hehe.

Its kinda like the default skin u use when you create a new blog.But this one is the new design.

Love it.haha.

NEXT !!

Cannot wait to get my exam results.

i hope i pass all the modules...

don't wanna retake.

ok just a short post..

k bye bye..

hey..

another post at night.

i'm missing my baby so much.

i miss her face.

her touch.

her voice.

her everything !

i miss her so so so so much!

baby,if in any way u're reading this,i want u to know that i love you.

i love u.no one else.just u.

u're the girl i adore.

i love.

i live for.

without u by me its like the star without its beautiful shine.

there is no me when there is no u.

babe,i syg u alot.omre then u love me.

i need u...

i love u

hello !

this post is just for fun..

im posting cos got this little fish/gajah/adek dan segala yg sewaktu dengannye yer.

don't want to say who uh(HAJAR) .

haha.

ok.

So,since the budak wants me to update...here's an update.

HAJAR KAU BELO !!

AKU ABANG !!

KAU SALAM CIUM TANGAN AKU WOKAY !

hehehe...

NEXT !!!!

babe's phone kena confiscated by the bapak.

sedeh perrrrrrrrrrrr..

cannot text her.*insert sad face here*

hehe.

babe,gua rindu sama lu !!

i miss you babe.

I LOVE YOU BABE !

ok..what else?

don't know what to say already.

did i say HAJAR GILER?

oh yarh i did..ok go !

HAJAR GILER !!

wokay bye..

i miss you baby !!!!!!!!!!

ouh btw,check out this website .

disgusting and very scary..to me laa.

k just go to this blog now.

http://karingeri.blogspot.com/?zx=2074ef262ea1dae7

helloooo..

holiday has officially started for me.Feeling goooooooooood..

Now let me begin my update..

YESTERDAY...

met syareez at yishun mrt in the morning,then head over to his crib.

we had a 'jam' session.haha.great time.

Of all the songs we played,the song Baby sang by justin 'gay' bieber was the song we did properly somehow.

We sang.Well,not really sang..more like screaming our god damn lungs out.

then we played PES or was it FIFA?nevermind,we played video games.syareez cheated.hehe.lucky win for him la.

while we were about to play HALO when our darlings texted us.syareez excited nak mampos!

we came out from his room,his mother told us to eat.syareez was too excited to eat.so i quickly ate and we ran to the nearest bus stop,board a bus and got to kama shop.

Then met the two fishes.

babe's face super epic funny with her mosquito bites.but cute.

lepak-ed for awhile.well not really awhile.bazli's towel,tak boleh tahan!

then they went home.me and syareez went to the library at Northpoint.talked then went home.

ok too long awready.

update something else some other time.

ok bye !!

i miss babe..

Hello..

a new update,a new story to tell.

lets start..

SCHOOL..

i cocked up today during my CSR exam.i mixed up the answers and questions.

i realised it right after i handed in the paper.i did a bit of calculation of how many marks i lost.

i lost at least 15marks.at least.

hmm.this is why you should check your papers a number of times before handing in your paper.

well, i've learnt my lesson.i just hope i won't need to retake the module.too late to regret now.

2 papers down..2 more to go..

HOME..

doing ok so far..

but no "we're a happy family" moment..

yeah..but we're ok

HER/BABY/BIE/BABE/FISH/BELO/IKAN

I LOVE HER. a lot.

but still..there's something that's missing.

i just can't figure it out.it's there but i just can't see it.

my love for her grow everyday..

tomorrow she going kota tinggi.haiyaaaaa.

Picture above is an 'illustration' of 'Jack The Ripper'

for the past 2 days,other than studying,i did a bit of research about this serial killer with a classmate of mine..NURUL HAQIDAH..we just solved who the murderer was..

i'll tell you a bit of what we got after the research.JACK was a physician.Sir William Gull.

he was ordered to murder the 5 victims as ordered by Lord Salisbury who was ordered by the Queen.

why did the Queen gave the order?Order was given after they found out something about her grandson,Prince Eddy.Eddy was visexual.forced to marry Mary The Teck.research shows that Mary was a prostitute(still under consideration).so both were separated.Mary then died not long after.

Her friends(the 5 victims)got to know what happened and tried to attempt bribery saying if they were not given the money,they'd expose the secret.so the Queen ordered Salisbury to have the 5 ladies killed.which was then the job of Sir William Gull..

so that's a summary of story of JACK THE RIPPER.

Researching about this story helped me a lot.it has helped me to be more calm and relax.i don't how but it really helped.

ok bye..will update soon..

i was saved..

good morning to one and all..

how do i start?hmmm..

ok..

firstly...my bestfriend,hajar asked me along to escape theme park with nami,babe and some other people..i wanted to go..but studies really kicking me in the ass.hard...

Feeling really guilty now..cos i cant go and meet them..It's been a long time since i met them..especially MIA..i wanna make it up to them..but by the time im done,they're already busy mugging for O's...feeling so guilty now..

STUDY...

been mugging..even when i'm having fun i try to recall what i've studied..

i'm really worried about my exam..i cannot and i don't want to retake the module..

i'll be wasting time if i did retake..

I don't wanna waste any more time..like i did during secondary school life..

HOME...

its fine i guess..

Mom not nagging much..

a good sign...

HER....

i miss her..badly..

i wanna meet her..

but studies..argh.

BABE...I MISS YOU !!

what a life i have..

hey..

it's been a long time since i last updated this blog of mine..

got too busy with school..

I DON'T NEED FUCK..SCHOOL FUCKS ME EVERYTIME..

LIFE...in school

Tests are killing me..mugging and mugging..

projects are on my nerves..

exams starts 31st May...only a few days away..

scared,panicking..

don't wanna repeat the module again..

DAYS..at home

It's like climbing a mountain 2 times higher than Mt. Everest

overall..no comment..

ME...and HER

Like a ball..Bouncing..

i know things are not ok..

and i know it's my fault..

so it'd be great if SOME of you stop rubbing it into me..

seriously...

faking a smile is easy peasy..

smiling for real is a bit too heavy..

isn't a smooth sail..

i know i have failed..

and now the factory sued..

i cannot be excused..

it crossed the advisor and source..

i know..

now the factory is trying to force..

to move a bit closer..

that 'it' still hovers..

btw,haven't put up a tagboard..

will do it soon..

bye...

lying to one's self will only cause yourself damage..

hello..

i am deeply disturbed..
i am super worried about HER.
she's sick..ill..
but still wants to go to school..
hope she'd be fine soon..
hope she's eating her meds..
hope she's getting a lot of rests..

HOME..
i'm not sure what to say really..
its ok..i guess?
hmmm..
got to endure..

QUESTIONS...
running through my mind..
every single word or sentence said is really scaring me..
i dunno why.
hmmm...

GUILTY...
i feel really guilty when that 'word' comes out or comes into conversation..
although it was me who wants to know about it..
i feel as if i'm at fault ..

should i be here,there?

im lost im still findin'
im drowning now im sinkin'
i can't take this god damn feelin'
its really grillin'....
In me..
the beef just too big for me..
try to hush hush things away.
but it'll just sway its way around..
around town.around the city.
then it just comes back and bite me.
im trippin'
trying to rhyme this life back in..

feelings all jumbled up currently..

trying to find a way to get peace in this blind mind..

SCHOOL got me feeling disturbed for a few weeks..

getting better now..so far,school is the only place i can really relax..

minus the nagging teachers and long hours of studies..

school is just one of 2 places i'd go to relax..

esplanade is another one..i'd usually walk there from where i live..

although there's quite a large number of people there,at least there's no one to just bring me down in any way..

HOME....

let's just say..it is really pissing me off..

everytime i'm at home,i'd feel very uneasy..when i'm at home,i feel very confused..its like my brain is being grabbed,torn apart then squeezed back together..

just a bite of my life for now..will continue soon..

hello..first post of this confidential blog of mine..

a bit of an intro about this blog..

this is where i talk properly and more serious than my other blog which you would know..

Here is where I'd let things out.

Just a brief intro about this blog..

so stick around..

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